我的藏獒开了我的花苞

"I do not wish to," I reply as a deep reverbeating growl of disapproval departs his chest. He finds my obvious disregard of his authority frustrating. If he thinks I am one of his wolves he can simply order around then he is terribly wrong.

The first to greet me are Deimos\'s and Lumina\'s wolves who are kind to welcome us on their lands overjoyed with the rare presence of Alpha Ares\'s first born male. I smile at them warmly appreciating them for their heartfelt greeting. I recognize many of them of course having spent years visiting the castle and often eating dinners with them in the dining hall.

I am aware of the females who thirst for my male the way their wanton orbs are adhered to his body the way they study his sturdy being from head to toe. The authority and dominance he exudes with every step he takes they must feel their knees weaken and envision how it would feel to be fucked by a beast. I can understand for I am like them too in a way. The only difference between them and I is that I am his female but that fact does not alter anything. I stand as one with them in line thirsting after a male I can never truly call mine.

My blues are agile to hunt for the female I have been waiting to meet and as soon as I discover her keen enthusiasm foams up within me and I run towards her without another thought ditching Phobos to fend for himself in a place he finds uncomfortable.

"Lumina!" I call her softly pulling her into my warmth nuzzling into her neck taking in her scent that strengthens me. She possesses a mixture of scents combined into one. Her own along with Deimos\'s and another I cannot identify, it belongs to her pup.

"Hello, Theia." She chuckles wrapping her arms around me and somehow I feel...safe. That no wolf can get to me when I am with her not even Phobos.

"It is great to finally see you again. I wished to meet you rather than speak on the phone." I tell her my truth. I had been yearning to meet her since we became friends. If I still lived with Cronus, mama and papa I would come here every weekend to take her out with my friends. That kind of life seems more worth living for.

"I feel the same."

"I baked this Genoise cake for your family. It is my mother\'s recipe I truly hope you like it. And here is Kal\'s present, I knitted it to keep him warm in winters." I mutter handing her the cake and her male\'s scarf. I truly hope she likes them and feels the profound love and respect I hold for her family.

"Thank you. You are so thoughtful, Theia." My eyes widen slightly to her words as my cheeks burn to her sweet compliment I did not expect to receive recognition from her. I shyly lower my face wishing she would not be able to discern my bashful smile. She is kind.

"Come, meet my male." Lumina is fleet to grab my hand and guide me towards where her male is. I am delighted she wants me to meet him for I know how mothers are with their pups they only allow whom they trust near them.

"Cronus!" I giggle playfully as I watch the way he engages with Kal launching him into the air only to seize him as he falls right into his awaiting limbs. I have missed my brother so much but I am emotionally vulnerable at his moment and if I hold him to me right now I will shatter in his arms and sob out my truth. I know my brother he will be unhesitant to start a war with my moon blessed. So I put on my mask and play along.

"Goddess, my sister is here. We must flee now, Kal."

"Stop it, I merely wish to say my wishes to him." I laugh as I gaze down at the pup he carries whilst circling by brother often only to pause and glimpse at the little one from behind his shoulders attempting to make him grin to my peek-a-boos.

I need him to calm to me first he must be a little disturbed by my presence for he will not be able recognize my scent. I do not wish to stress him on his birthday.

"His eyes are stunning, Lumina. Just as Deimos." I beam. Goodness he truly is a photo copy of his father. These eyes of his shall surely break hearts but I know Lumina will not let him prance around with females as Deimos did. She will bring him up into a worthy male.

"Indeed, but his stubbornness comes from me I assure you." She jokes. Stubborness is good it helps you know your worth he will become a mighty leader and will lead this pack into prosperity I feel it in my bones.

But at this instant he is the cutest pup I have ever laid eyes on and I will make sure spoil him to the fullest of my capability as he matures. If he ever needs a break from his life, my home will be his. This male better call me the world\'s best aunt.

"I think he wishes to come to me now, let him go Cronus!" I struggle to take the little one from my brother who refuses to surrender him to me. It shall be competition between us for whom shall win over the pup\'s heart.

As though belatedly realising my urgent want to hold Kal to my heat Cronus passes the inquisitive male to me who immediately nuzzles onto my breasts sniffing my scent. Is he perhaps scouring for milk? His body shakes to set free a minute sneeze and I cannot withhold from snuggling him further into my bosom swaying the little one whilst nudging my nose onto his plump cheek. So adorable!

"Oh Goddess, he is wonderful." Would it be wrong if I kidnapped Kal and took him home for a few days? I would introduce him to Momo, to the other pups and fatten him up with food.

"Theia." Lumina calls me softly collecting the totality of my attention from her male.

"Yes?"

"Why has he not marked you yet?"

A sudden wave of embarrassment is fleet to smother me yet after it crosses I am hit by a thunderbolt of grief that pierces straight into my heart to her unforeseen inquiry.

"He does not want me." I vocalise my truth as quickly as I can somehow I feel ashamed to face her.

"He is your male." Her comforting words do not encourage me rather lure me deeper into the pit of emptiness. "You haven\'t told him."

"I haven\'t. His assumptions are many, too many for me to straighten."

"You must tell him, Theia. Yet despite it all, you love him." Love. A funny feeling is it not? No matter how much your male breaks apart your soul your heart still beats for him. No matter how often he decides to neglect you to wander around with another female your soul finds peace with him.

"Selflessly. Wholly. Unfathomably." If only you knew Phobos. If only you saw what others see. If only you took initiative to truly know the heart of whom the moon has blessed you with.

"It is not merely his assumptions I must deal with. There is someone else among others whom he holds dear to him. I cannot compete." Moira is a good female but she makes me feel everything I loathe. Jealousy, hatred, anger and pain. She spent more years with Phobos than I did she was there for him when I wasn\'t. She knows him better than I do. I pete.